Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros.

Thursday night I ventured out with a couple friends for my first Twilight Concert Series experience in SLC to see Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros.  I had only heard a couple of their songs before but loved the ones that I had heard and knew that it would be a good concert.  I mean, LOOK at them:

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So fun!


*Rewind 3 hours*--Jenn goes to dentist for root canal. Jenn gets root canal.  Jenn complains about severe pain.  Jenn gets pain med prescription.  Jenn picks up pain med prescription.  Jenn goes straight to frontrunner to meet willy for concert.  (yeah right.. like I was going to miss the concert on the account of my numbness and intense pain. pshh!) Jenn takes pain meds at concert.  Jenn=dumb, a bit sleepy on the slower songs, a bit blah, but nevertheless, still had fun!


I loved everything about the atmosphere of the concert.  It was free, there were TONS of people there, henna tattoos, little vendors, sunshine, sweaty people toking up..you know.. the usual.


Here's a little taste of what you would have heard had you been at the concert:



(sorry it's live...so there may or may not be a swear or two. But really.. THAT's how fun and alive this band was the other night!)





Mix in a few "Let's have a round of applause for being alive" and "hello beautiful human beings" and thanking the world for trees and stars and such and that pretty much sums up the band and the concert in itself.  It was super inspirational and filled with Hippie Love :)


Most of the people there were super classy too and why do I always make friends with them?! I'm not sure.  It just happens.  The lortabs I took for my teeth might have had something to do with it a bit but I met a girl named megan.  She had tourquoise hair.  We had some good mini convos about her smoking habits, her tattoos and her love for the cancer symbol that she had tattoed on her wrist.  Nieko swore it looked like it said "69" instead.  Either way, it was weird. But for a brief 30 minutes or so, I'd say we were friends for sure. She was nice;)


I know what you're thinking, "Jenn, I really want to see this girl."  haha. Don't you fret.  Nieko made me take a pic with her JUST so you guys could see.  Typical..

bahahahahaha. clASSy.  See the kid with the brown hair in the brown shirt behind her?  He's standing like that because he's trying to hide his pipe.  Megan didn't know him but don't worry, he shared with her.  People at concerts are just so freaking nice :)


I won't even go into the story of the old drunk dude who played with my ear for a few seconds on the frontrunner.  It was like I didn't even know what was going on.  It just happened.  I guess I shouldn't have waved at him?  Whatever.  It was super funny after the fact.


Wow. Two times on the front runner in one week and it hasn't let me down yet.  *insert sarcastic thumbs down*


All in all it was a good time but we were EXHAUSTED after it was over.  I woke up the next morning and my shirt and my keys were on the floor next to the front door and kitchen counter. I guess I was THAT tired.  Who knows? ...Don't ask.  


Well, my beautiful human beings--have a lovely Saturday! :) 

In the midst of a crappy morning, you sometimes need a legit reason to smile...

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...especially if you have to go back to the dentist again so they can get the dang job right. ugh. my life.

Well, Thank you Zac for being today's reason to smile :)...you sexy, sexy man you.

**I've posted so many pics of him in the last year that I'm worried I'm going to run out. But then I remember that these will never get old**

Waaaaa

I seriously just now, on my lunch break, remembered that I bought one of these head massagers from Urban on Monday and haven't busted it out yet:

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Only problem is that it's in Layton...I'm in Salt Lake...


and that's how I feel about the situation. [no pun intended] [actually pun totally intended]

....oh it's onnnn tonight.

Just let go--Out with the bad...In with the new and better

I always have so many topic ideas that pop into my head everyday based on things I'm doing at that certain time.  This last week was not an exception.


If you want to read about the little events of my weekend you can read here. [Just a little tid bit of information: I obviously don't post all of my posts to fbook.]


I thought of at least 4 great blog topics based on the events of last weekend but I remembered that I'm so open with my opinions with the people in my life that the individuals would know that I was referring to their life stories....even the blog titles would give them away...sooo.... to save me from having to explain myself or apologize about my occasional rudeness and honesty, I will just stick with a quick post about "Letting go."


We all have something that we know we need to let go of.  Hatred towards someone who offended us, a past love, a crush, a toxic friendship, fears or even insecurities.  I would classify these as anything that you know is making your life more stressful and dramatic than it needs to be. We've all had at least one of them.

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Honestly, who are we kidding?  There are some things we just can't fix no matter how hard we try.  It's rough but why stress over the unfixable? If your favorite car is broken and all the glue and professional car fixers in the world can't put it back together..sooner or later you have to stop trying and move on.

 Maybe things used to be good and it's hard for you to forget it and let go but the fact of the matter is that people change, circumstances change, feelings change and life in general changes.  As long as you are being honest with yourself and with others, there is nothing more you need to do. There will always be something new right around the corner.

You are allowed to have sad/stressful days and days where everyone around you thinks that you are being competely ridiculous but the beautiful thing is that you can choose how long you let it go on. 

And if you're taking too long and your family or friends are trying to help you...just let them try:)

Out with the bad.  In with the new and BETTER!

**Note**yes, this is me having one of these life realizations today... even Jenn stresses about dumb things sometimes ;)

Bed before 2 AM? I don't understand..

It's official. I suck at weekend blogging. I think it's due to the fact that I work all day, hang out all night and get minimal sleep...The sad part is that the weekend is usually when all of the monumental blog topic happenings go down and by the time I have a minute to write it all down I have a hard time remembering what I even did two nights ago. It's sad, really.


So just let me do a combined post/recap of some of the thoughts I had based on the weekend:


1.) 24th of July in Utah=long weekend. I fully support everything about this. Even if it does mean that everyone does fireworks for the ENTIRE month of July.


2.) Why do I even go to the drive in? I mean, I totally love it but I never end up loving the movie because I don't pay attention to it [you're wrong.  It's because i'm making out or anything haha] I think I will have to watch Captain America again when it comes to redbox or something because my lack of interest in the movie as a whole kind of bothers me. I really was excited for it.


3.)Jiffpop is the shiz. It was {N}'s idea and well, I think we are all hooked. {A} and I were talking last night and decided we just need to buy it in bulk or something because it's perfect for every party. RIGHT,{A}? (lol) Fun to cook and fun to eat.

4.) Betos=Glorified taco truck. But I'll admit...the nachos were good!


5.) Sleeping on the Trampoline always sounds like a great idea on a perfect summer night.  {W} and I slept on the trampoline and sure, we felt like we had been hit by a bus when we woke up in the morning and we only got about 4 hours of sleep.. but it's funny what you can learn about someone when you put all pull crap or drama aside and you just talk about life in general.  It was fun.  It's confirmed though, I have even crazier dreams when I don't sleep in my own bed.  weird.


6.) I experienced my first trip on the frontrunner yesterday after living here for over a year.  Carli and I went shopping at the Gateway for our day off and long story short...we didn't check the schedule until we were ready to go and realized that they were running every hour and the next one left in 9 minutes or an hour and 9 minutes... we ran to the station (shorts falling off from lack of belt, SUPER full bellies from just finishing the best sandwhiches).  Right as we get to the station what happens? Bye-Bye frontrunner.  Did we spend the next hour laughing and cursing the frontrunner? yea. we did.  At least I got my head massager from Urban :)oot Woot!




... I think I will end it there. I'm too passionite about the other lessons learned from the weekened to simply recap.  I'll post later.


Oh, for those of you who need a little sugar rush pick-me-up today...I made these peanut butter nummers this weekend from here.

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yum.   Later, homies.

Jiffy Pop!

Why haven't I been making this popcorn all along?

It's a crowd pleaser.
Fun to make. Fun to eat. Yummmm :)

The last 12 hours--Three things I never thought I would do:

1.) Let certain friends see me in real pain. I'm not talking about heartbreak, when my feelings are hurt or when I'm an emotional wreck.  I'm talking about the "omg, I don't know what to do, it hurts so freaking bad...AHHHH!" physical kind of pain followed with some tears.  Seriously, if I ever have a Charley Horse again, I swear I'm going to go 127 hours on that shiz and cut off my leg.  Pirates and peg legs are cool, right? 

2.) Be convinced that I was legitimately seeing a UFO.  Now, don't worry. It turned out to be a plane. But me, {A} and {W} (not the beverage...real people) were freaking out for a minute.  It might be because we were talking about aliens and watching scurrrry youtube videos but it looked legit. ewwww I get the heebies just thinking about it.

3.) Get a Utah Drivers License.  Yep! As of this morning, it's official.  I passed the written test and everything..granted I was able to use the book, but still.  I honestly never thought that would happen but I guess I might as well make my living here official.  Utah plates for the new car ordered (check), Utah address for more than a year (check),  and now a Utah drivers license (check, check).. Omg, what is happening to me? !

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Looks like I've moved from Potatoes to Mormon. Both good things. I guess I will stay for a little while :)

**Special thanks to {A} for rubbing my leg last night when I was in so much pain and a sarcastic/virtual "thumbs up" to {W} for laughing at me the whole time--Thanks, pals :)

My "long, scattered, weird explanation/pep talk about the dreaded Friend Zone" post

Before I start going off on the subject matter at hand, I first want to clarify that this post is not referring to the "woe's of life from Jennifer Hansen."  In fact, it finally has nothing to do with my personal life at this moment at all. [hallelujah].  However, let's be honest, we've all been there.  We all know how terrible it is. I mean, it's in almost EVERY chick flick on the planet.  It's.....

*insert creepy sound effects*

I recently re-watched the movie "Just Friends."  Funny movie, right?  Light Bulb!--what a perfect topic :) SO here you go...

The number one reason I've found that most people find themselves super snug in the Friend Zone is that they simply waited too long to make a move.  Some hold onto their "more than friends" feelings and never make the move because they are:
1--Too chicken to confront the situation.
2--Don't want to work for it because it seems too hard.
3--Afraid of rejection.
4--They "don't want to ruin what they already have" with that friend.
5--They question where the feelings really come from.  "Maybe it's just because I'm around her all of the time?" or "Maybe it's just because he 'gets' me better than any other guy?" uhhh hello? What do you think that means?!

Do any of these sound familiar? Most likely.  But the above reasons aren't always the case when it comes to the dreaded Friend Zone.  It's not always just because we are lazy or scared or over-analyze the crap out of everything.  In fact, some people quickly find themselves already too deep in the FZ when they decide that they want to be more than just friends with someone.  Once you are in that deep, it's hard to find the motivation and the correct strategy/plan of action to get yourself out.

It's kind of like digging a hole in the ground and looking for treasure.  You're not quite sure what you will find but you really want to know what could potentially be there so you dig and you keep digging because it's exciting and you really want to see where the hole will lead. But alas, you don't find anything.  Zip.  Nada. Nothing.  You take a breather from digging because it's exhausting, you look up, and you realize that you are so deep that there is literally no way for you to climb out of the deep/dark hole. You are stuck.  Way stuck.  Once you've reach this point you have two ways out as I see it.  One. Yelling or waiting for someone outside of the hole to throw you a rope or a latter [plan of action] to help you pull yourself out.  Two. You decide if it's worth it to keep going, you take control of your life, and you keep digging until you are FOR SURE there is no hope of finding any treasure.

If you are deep in in the FZ and it's really getting to you then you have to get yourself out.  No matter what the outcome is. It's hard.  But it's SO do-able.  Either get someone to pull you out (have friends convince you that he/she is ugly, not worth it, or that you could do better [works every time] or find someone else to like if it's not really worth the work with said friend) or you keep digging until you find out what could be.  You might get rejected.  It might be super awkward.  Actually, it most likely will be awkward.  But if it's worth the FZ struggle you've been in for however long, then you have to at least try.  Who knows, maybe the other person has been ticked about the dumb FZ too and is just as stuck or already got themselves "over" it. 

No matter what the outcome... at least you would know.  Just get out so you can move along in which ever direction you are supposed to so you don't have to sit in the hole for years and then have to re coop from being in it for so long. ew.  vomit. not fun.
Need help?  Just say the magic words, "Phone Lines are Open" and I will take a stab at it.  Or just watch any episode of Dawson's Creek. haha.  That show is entirely about the Friend Zone and the positive and negative sides of getting yourself out of it.

Don't be a loser. Be a winner and take control of your life!

Chicken Gyros

I made these delish Chicken Gyros from Annie's Eats and figured I better share!

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For some reason I already had almost all of the ingredients for this meal so it was pretty inexpensive.  Make sure you read the directions carefully if you are planning to give it a try as it takes longer to prep than expected but it was worth it. 

My tips:  I didn't have any cheesecloth and honestly didn't know what it was (don't worry, I googled it so I know now) so I strained my plain yogurt for the sauce using a fine cheese grater over a bowl over night.  Worked perfectly.  I also marinated my chicken over night which made the chicken extra tasty.  I will probably make just the chicken again with those ingredients and serve it in pasta or with rice because the taste was so good.  Also, the sauce has a wonderful summery/cool taste and goes so well with the chicken but for some reason I ended up with lots of extras that I didn't need! So I suggest either making less sauce or more chicken.  up to you!

Good Luck :)

The Playmill

Seeing one of the besties, Alex Trost, in the Playmill this summer was definitely on the top of my "Summer Twenty-Eleven" to do list.  I had been looking forward to it since the day he called me and told me he had made the cast. He kept me updated through the entire process of the auditions and we knew that no matter what happened, it would simply be meant to be. 

Boy, were we right.  He was meant to be on that stage!

I decided to take one of the BFF's, Mandy (left), and even my niece (right) wanted to tag along so we made it a quick weekend trip. Here's us anxiously waiting outside for the doors to open: 



Don't worry, I had just shown them some of the moves they would be seeing in the play. ["We're All In This Together"--insert arm pump dance move X four] haha.

I had never been to the Playmill before but I knew that I was going to love it.  Sure, it was High School Musical AND Alex Trost, both of which I love dearly, but I would have loved the experience regardless.

So here you go--
Reasons for you to trip to the Playmill this summer:

1.) Look how cute the little building is!


2.) It's right in the heart of West Yellowstone, which, despite some of the clllaaassssy people there, is such a fun little town to visit :)  Lots of shops and cute places to eat with delish food. *Tip*--The chicken strips at the diner across the way (not sure what it's called but you walk into it and you basically feel like you are on the set of the movie 'Grease') were SO good.  We even had a nice chat with the super cute gent that works in one of the Men's fishing/hunting stores about a super hazy night he had Canada and something about the strength of Canadian beer.  haha? Like I said, classy but fun.

3.)  The cast is to die for.  No joke.  I honestly felt like I was instant friends with some of the cast even though I never met them. Maybe it's because I was so loud compared to everyone else in the audience and getting WAY into everything [we all know how much I get into movies, tv shows and celebs, right? Well, just picture it all going down live. haha].  Let's just say I was noticed by people in the room--guaranteed. 

4.) Let's not forget to mention that they were all so cute which added to the fun factor.  Sure, Troy wasn't Zac Efron but he was adorable.  Gabriella, Sharpay, and OMG.. Ms. Darbus--SO perfect for the role.  And honestly, my eyes were stuck to Alex's character Zeke.  So funny, and so perfect.  His little crush on Sharpay and his love for baking was adorable and he did such an amazing job doing it and making me believe the character as a whole.  Some of his lines, facial expressions and all of his vocals were like, WHOA.  I was dying laughing through most of it--blew me away! 


Here's me with the little Wildcat himself!  I couldn't be more happy for him and can tell that he couldn't be happier.  There's nothing better than that!

and 5.) They aren't just doing HSM this summer.  They are also doing 'Dirty Rotten Scoundrels' and 'Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.'  If you want to read more about the shows or look at the schedule for the rest of the summer to plan a quick trip..click here! 

Oh, and if you go to one of the shows and you don't know Alex Trost, tell him I sent you.  He would love it and I would feel even more famous than I already do just for knowing the kid.  haha ;)

Even though I barely got to see Alex before and after the show, it was so worth going to support him and seeing all of the hard work that he's put into the Playmill this summer.  I'm planning on going again in August to see one of the other shows because well, it was THAT much fun.

Don't you just love it when your friends are super talented!?!

'I solemnly swear I am up to no good.' HP7P2. It ends tonight.

I won't say much about the fact that I'm actually thrilled that I didn't really lose or throw away my HP7P2 ticket for the midnight showing tonight like I thought I had.  At first I was mostly just ticked that I was out 9 bucks.  But alas, I'm going. yes.  It ends tonight.
Here are some trending HP pics on pinterest this week:

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Pretty sure if this photo could talk, it would be with a super hot accent.  Seriously.  Tom Felton [Draco]--got it going on.  Daaaaaaang.

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I thought this was pretty cool. However, there's a handful of the shapes I can't figure out what they are and where they come from.  Die hard Harry Potter fan?  I guess I'm not. But that doesn't mean I don't enjoy the movies.

If you can figure out all of these shapes then I will give you... actually no.  I won't give you anything...uhhh... STUPEFY !

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Love this one. Look how they've grown up! It's magical. 

Well, Muggles--Enjoy the movie! Or don't. whatever.

Peace and Blessings :)

Guidos, Guidettes and the embarrassing moment of the week.

I've been getting really excited for the guidos and guidettes of JS to come back into my life really soon.  I think my excitement has been reflected in some of my recent actions...

1.) Last week I mentioned on my fbook that I found a DJ mix in my car and I seriously reminisced about DJ Pauly D like he was my friend for a few minutes and I missed him. HA! 

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hahahaha. He's my fave.

It get's worse...

2.) The other day I caught myself calling someone's behavior in their "relationship" disgusting and I'm pretty sure I said it with an jersey accent.  Umm, Sammi? [don't worry. I didn't add in the clapping and pointing.  At least, I don't think I did]

Last...

3.) Today can go down as my embarrasing moment of the week thus far...I have this wicked scratch on my leg that's kind of deep and my coworker told me I needed to put some medicine on it.  I should have just said, "No!  That will sting" and moved on with work but that wouldn't be the "Jenn" thing to do. No way.  Instead, I lift my leg up [in a shorter dress mind you] and put it on her desk (for dramatic effect) and said..."Um. No.  It's not that bad!"

Well, right as those words came out of my mouth, I looked down the isle to my right where all other cubes are and noticed that there were three extrememly good looking younger guys that I've never seen before at FC sitting in the isle working on computers and happened to look over at that exact moment 

*insert embarassed emotions, light blushing and the desire to say something extremely inappropriate.*

SAY WHHHATT?!  How did they see me for the first time ever?  Half flashing them and saying something that could and was most likely taken in the wrong way given my stance. Awesome. Real awesome.

My instant held back reaction?  Yelling, "Kooka" and shrugging it off like nbd. hahaha. of course.  Like I said, I held back.

But as my friend Nieko said in reference to JS: the whole thing used to be a guilty pleasure but now I just love it.

I think I just confirmed that love for it and all its ridiculousness.  So, for my blog readers and JS fans--You are cordially invited to an Italian party on August 4th at my place for the premier.  No joke.

Dreams are weird.

Aren't dreams funny?

Dreams where you wake up and question your sanity. for real.

Dreams where you jolt yourself awake and possibly scream because you are so scared or were running or falling..weird.

Dreams where you wake up in a pile of drool because you are salivating over Rum? yeah, it happened.  Note--I didn't drink it for realzies  Calm down.

Dreams where you literally have to splash water on your face or pinch yourself so you know that you are truely awake and that it was just a dream.

Dreams where you never want to wake up because it is so wonderful.

Dreams that are so funny that you will never forget it because it's THAT ridiculous.

Dreams that are so creepy that you never want to go to sleep again but you finally fall asleep after praying for an hour for "good dreams" (please don't tell me I'm the only one who has done that)

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(what a good idea to do this when you can actually remember your dreams! cute )

What about the kind where you are shown an alternative ending to something in your life that is/was real?

Do you know the kind i'm talking about?  It's almost like a reading into the future according to if you would have handled your real life situation differently...

I just had one of these last night and it really freaked me out.  The storyline of the dream started out just like a real life situation from last week--Me.  A couple of friends.  Our immagination/humor/sheer talent running wild and an ending confirmation that we were good people.  Except this dream had an alternate ending.  We weren't good people at all.  In fact, someone in the dream called us heartless! Say whatt?

I woke up from the dream horrified.  What if I would have tried to get away with something like I know I could have?  Would my dream have come to pass?

idk.

Let's just say it all felt super real and after that dream there are certain people that I question trusting and others who I wonder will honestly ever talk to me again....

But then I remind myself that it wasn't real :)

I guess we can learn lessons from our dreams too [like making plans on to how avoid getting yourself into trouble..haha.] Does that mean that it's us teaching ourselves while we are asleep? Whoa. The brain is weird.

Jacqueline, this one's for you!

One of my friends and readers, Jacqueline, let me know a couple of weeks ago that her and her madre tried making the homemade Samoa's I posed a while back. [So proud:)]  They had the same problems that I did. Although, super good, that recipe takes a ton of time and dipping the bottoms in chocolate was painful and had not so pretty results.

LOOK what I found today:

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Samoa Brownies! From "Six Sister's Stuff." I found their blog today and love it. Lots of great recipes and great ideas!

We just love us some coconut.. and guess what?  You don't have to do any chocolate dipping.  Just drizzling.  I think we'll have to give them a try :)

Thank you Dr. Seuss for this:

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Thank you Dr. Suess!

Love,

Jennifer Weirdiewaitingforweirdomatch Hansen

Things I don't understand as of late...

1.) I used to think that pay phones were the most disgusting thing on the planet....until I was almost in desperate need of using one when the BB croaked.  Here's the thing though: they like, don't exist any more..at least not on Main Street of Layton, Utah.  So even if I would have worked up the courage to use one I wouldn't have been able to find one.

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How did people communicate before phones.  Really?


2.) I've caught myself a couple of times in the last few days saying that "it's kind of nice not having the Internet on my phone."


OMG, WHO AM I?!?


I will say that I now spend way less time on fbook and have at least an extra hour added to my day.  It's ridic how much more I get done.  However,  I still feel like this sometimes:

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Disconnected.  Hard core.  That just means that I have to work harder to pry stuff out of people in person instead relying heavily on my fbook stalking skills ;)


3.) I love fireworks. I enjoy blowing crap up.  But why do people always insist on throwing them at me when I'm not looking?  It's fire people.  Boom, hot, ouch...Fire! Ring a bell?  Idiots.


4.) Mafia.  Ok, the game is good.  However, aside from some strategy, stealth and lying, there isn't much to the game yet it gets SOOOO heated.  Maybe it's because our crew has some really talented liars?  Yeah, I think so.

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I wish I would have video taped all of the yelling and accusations when we played the other night.  Heated but fun? I don't get it.  But like I said, for some reason it's really fun...except if you die on the first round.  Sorry Easton ;)


5.) umm... I saw this on E news last night and almost had a heart attack. For real:

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I've done some research and Ashley came out saying that they aren't dating but helllrrr? omg. Dating or not.  Really, Zac?  uggghhh.


One last thing:


Numero 6.) I really don't understand why people can't be honest with others about their feelings.  If you feel a certain way...let people know for crying out loud.  Keeping it to yourself when all you want to do is let it out will only drive you nuts.  So let it out.  I know...everyone needs this advice.  It's rough but trust me.  You'll feel better :) I promise.


Love you, lovelies.

Cursed? When it rains it Pours? Yep. Confirmed.

I'll just start.

I remember thinking last week that I was starting to get really comfortable with life. Things just seemed to be working out so well. The job was good, my baby nephew was here, friends were good..My life was just really comfortable.

Why is it that just when we think life gets comfortable that we desperately want a change? I remember thinking exactly that. Thinking that I needed a change. I shudder with regret at the thought.

This could be the ultimate pitty/"Wo is me" post but no one wants to hear that and honestly, I'm not looking for sympathy at all.  I just want you to be in the know :)

Here is goes:

Hell Week (watered down version)
Going to Idaho to see my BFF get married and my little nephew born was so great but I was ready to get back to work and back to see some of my Utah friends.  I decided that I would head back early morning on Wednesday so I could get back and shop, do laundry and spend the day with Cole since he had the day off.

Basically an hour and 30 minutes away from home...click, click, click.  putt, putt, putt.  BANG.  Something busted on my car.  If I only knew at that moment how bad the damage was, I would have left the car on the side of the road.  Of course I didn't know.  About 2 hours and $380 later, the old tow truck man picked me and the corolla up and dropped us off at the most GHETTO auto shop in Tremonton named Darryl's.  The name says it all.

I didn't think I was cursed until later down the road when this chain of events happened.  I'll talk fast.  Go with me on this.

Found out engine needed replaced.  Said engine=$2,000.  Not Worth it.  Cried. Decided this meant a new car.  Excited for a minute.  Anxiety.  Cried some more. Took ANOTHER day off. Car shopped.  Found beautiful/expensive car.  Convinced by father to find something cheaper.  Left car dealership. Frustrated.  Focused on breathing.  Car shopped online.  Black Berry shuts off.  Won't turn back on.  FREAKED out.  Upset.  Remembered I'm still car-less.  Walked sorry rear-end to AT&T store.  Super hot outside.  Embarrassed.  Super embarrassed.  Found out phone croaked.  Not due for upgrade until November.  Wanted to Die.  Got $10 flip phone.  Canceled $30 data package. SUUUUCKed at T9.  Walked home.  Still upset.  Sweating.  Got home.  Found old DINO Black Berry.    Disconnected from Fbook and internet on phone, say whhaaaaa?  Still car-less.  Cried some more.  A lot more.  Hung out with friends.  Briefly forgot about troubles. Fun.  Next Day. Drove hour to tremonton to get stuff out of car.  Auto guy forgot keys in car as promised.  Auto shop closed for the weekend.  Couldn't believe it.  Freaked out.  Anger.  Then laughter.  Still no car.  No apartment/mail keys....talked to padre about car situation. Maybe came up with solution.  Still cried some more.  Forgot about issues for day...

Whoa.

I honestly could have written a book just about the last 4 days but It's painful to even relive the super watered down, no detail version.  The word "Cursed" seems to be an understatement.

But you know what?  Today at church I realized that even though a lot of crazy crap went down over the last few days that seem to be the end of the world...and none of the issues have still been solved..it really isn't the end of the world.  I really do have a lot of things to be grateful for.  Sure, it's hard to see it when we are in our trial and being tested but everything that is happening to me right now just reconfirms the love that my Savior has for me.

Right now my life isn't comfortable and I'm OK with it.  I look at it as a way for me to learn and to grow.  Sure, I might not get the car that I want right now and I might want to give up sometimes and haven't worn make up in DAYS but I can choose to learn from everything and make smart decisions.  I have to.  I mean, this whole "curse"/crying thing is getting old.

Don't worry, I'll be fine and I'll keep you posted.  But it would be OK for you to mention me in your prayers :) OK, got to get some rest for the 4th of July festivities.  Another day to forget about real life and all the crap and time for Food, Friends, Fun, Freedom and Fireworks.

I will get back on track soon with awesome/meaningful posts but right now I've just got to figure crap out..

Things to remember.  You are never alone and Never give up.  Ever.

Ok, I'm rambling.  BYYYYEE