Wednesday

"I never want you guys to leave."
-Kier about us being at her house
I suppose we should go over to her house more often.  Come to think of it, I think that was the only time I've been over there since Cole and her have been dating.  I guess that's what happens when you live with your boyfriend's ex. #awkward.  But Anna's birthday was a success and I guess you can say we are the life of the party.. I wouldn't want us to leave either. 

"It was nice meeting you... You make me laugh.  I was watching you pretend to put the food down your shirt.. hilarious."
-Kid
Here's the thing.. this kid was super cute and I totally made a connection with him when I told him that he should really grow out his facial hair (the theme was lumberjack/mustache and he had some really convincing stuff going on... we won't talk about the fact that he mentioned that his mommy did it for him. moving on.)  But I just really don't like the idea of people watching me without me knowing.  It super weirds me out.  Yes, people watching is on my top 10 things I like to do but I usually don't..scratch that..I NEVER, admit to the person that I was watching them.  It's weird.  Anyways, in the end the kid balanced out his creepy comment with his cute points but I'm not sure if it was the fake facial hair that did it for me.  Dang it.  All creepy comments aside, I'm still a little embarrassed. I don't know why I was pretending to put the food down my shirt...meh.


"You're right.  This is embarrassing."
-Chris to me while sitting in the car waiting for Nieko and Cole to scope out the dumpster treasure behind Krispy Creme
I won't go too far into detail because the idea behind what was actually being done is quite frankly hilarious but dumpster "browsing" really makes me uncomfortable. I don't care if it's at night or where it is... Chris and I didn't even want to be associated with it.  I kind of envy people who have no shame when it comes to stupid things that don't matter at all.   Me, though? HA.  If someone were to come up to me or see me doing something like that I would literally want to be dead.  Preferably buried in the dumpster filled with leftover glazed donuts and garbage where I belong because I was THAT embarrassing of a person. 

Dramatic? 
slightly.


"I bet she doesn't remember my name either."
-Bailey.  The kid's name is BAILEY.
I've decided that one of the worst things is when you know you've met someone a few times and you can't remember their name but they come up to you, look you square in the eye and say, "How are you, Jenn?"  *cue the swear word in my head and a overly excited "OMG, HEY!!!!! HOW ARE YOU!?"* I just hate it.  You might as well be telling the person that they weren't interesting or important even though you obviously made a little impression or were memorable in some way whether it was for good or bad reasons. 

The worst part was that the kid was clinging to me quite a bit that night and I just couldn't remember his name.  I had one moment to ask someone what his name was (the party host) and even she didn't remember. Then I felt really bad...the kid is ALWAYS over there.  But she knew it started with a B.  That information semi-saved me later when I was telling someone else that I didn't remember his name and "B" called me out in front of everyone.  Embarrassing.  Luckily I was able to say "it starts with a B, right?" 

omg. I just want to know what he was hoping to get out of that?  Well, I won't forget his name from there on out, that's for sure.  Except I probably won't see him again considering I only see him when I go over to their apartment once a year. haha

"You're clever on twitter.  Witty!"
-Trevor
I like meeting people in real life whom I've only been introduced to through Twitter. This happened twice this week...

"Kier, I just have to tell you..Cole's sister is the funniest person ever.  His friends are fun too." 
-Kier's roommate
"What do you think I've been doing? Sitting around not having fun."
-Kier
I'm not trying to convince you that I'm funny or that all of my friends are funny by posting all of these things about people saying so.  I just think it's funny that people even doubt us. And we don't TRY to be funny or fun...we just simply choose to 1) speak our minds even when we probably shouldn't. 2) make people feel awkward for sport 3) Make fools out of ourselves and not care [minus the dumpster diving. never.] 
4.) We simply choose not to be boring. 

That's all it is.  That and a little/lot of Red Bull occasionally. Friday wasn't my finest hour.. I was close to a  9.5 on the Jenn Embarrassment Scale...it's whatever. 

"Remember when those guys thought you were getting raped?"
-Nieko
So there was one point in the weekend where I randomly decided to make a scene.  And by that I (for some reason) started doing the full out fake ugly cry really loud in the car while some people were walking by. I don't even remember why I started doing it.  All I know is dumb me got carried away and didn't realize that it might have sounded ...well, "not OK." Like I was in trouble or something.  I think a couple of people were really concerned about what was going on in the car. Chris' response after telling me to bascailly calm down...
"Oscar winning performance"
What can I say? I commit. 100%.  I really should have been an actress or something.  Everyone loves the funny, slightly inappropriate chubby girl who can instantly fake a few tears.  

Dang it, I could have been rich. smh. 
haha kidding.

"FLYING V!!!!!!"
-Cole
For FHE on Monday we played broom hockey.  Of course Cole walked in with a hardcore duct taped, wooden handled broom.  Everyone was commenting on how great and hardcore it was.  The game started, Cole got the ball and screamed "FLYING V!!!!" just like a scene right out of Mighty Ducks.  As he pulled back his broom for the hit ( on his first real hit, mind you) his broom snapped right in half. hahahaha.  It was the funniest thing.  I guess that's what he gets for being cocky.  I was dying.

*QUACK, QUACK, QUACK. QUACK.*

"You look cute." *Exits room* "BAHAHHAHAA." 
-my dear, loving brother
He just happened to walk into my room while I had a chocolate strawberry face mask on so of course the comment wasn't sincere.  Basically it translates in guy terms into "WOOF." 

he's rude.

Wenesday

"Sorry you can't play Bejeweled!"

-Amy, Coworker.

Sometimes there are people at work who complain about doing work that they are supposed to do.  It's quite annoying actually.  Last week this happened and Amy responded with this ^^ luckily they didn't hear her but I was laughing. Actually, I'm surprised no one has ever heard us talking about them before.  hmm.

"YOU SOLD SHITZIE?!"

-Liz

Last week I got a strange text from Kier asking if I would be willing to sell Shitzie, my furby that my Mom got be for Christmas.  Apparently they are sold out everywhere and a guy at her work was in desperate need for one for his daughter's birthday.  How am I supposed to deny a child of her one birthday wish?  Especially since I've only played with Shitzie a few times and I had him trapped back in his box without batteries to let him live.  I had to sell it.  I probably could have gotten more money out of him but $40 to give a furby to a loving home and to make a little girl's wish come true?... it was a good deal/deed.

Hopefully they girl enjoys him as much as we did.  On the real, those things are fun.  If only they spoke English...well beside the "CHANGINGGG.. Whoa, whoa.." hahah. omg. Whoever thought of making the new Furby's have multiple personalities like Sybil is one weird dude, though.

"I've gotta fart. Might as well do it."

-Easton

I know this is gross but the best part was that Sam had already stunk up the entire apartment so Easton was like "might as well." Totally makes sense, I get it, but that's pretty sad when something is so stinky already that it would mask another probably deathly smell.  Ew. I can't believe I live with boys sometimes.  haha.

"Are you making fun of me?!" 

-new EQ president

It's that moment when you totally are laughing at someone not in a bully way, but just in an "OMG, you just fell so hard at classic skating" kind of way and then that person calls you out for laughing at them.  Haha I just kept laughing and was like "Yeah, you're doing great." Awkward.

"Stop calling me a douche, douche bag."

-Mom to dad

So if I haven't mentioned it already, Mom got an iphone a couple of weeks ago, so now she can FaceTime even with Dad is using the iPad.  It's basically crazy.  Anyways, Cole and I were FaceTiming them while they were just hanging out watching TV and seriously, they were in the funniest moods.  This is the kind of stuff that happens all the time.  It's all in fun and games but I just roll my eyes after I remember that they are my parents and probably shouldn't be saying Db.  They're weirdly hilarious and they know it.

"AHH I DON'T KNOW YOU!!"

-Me to random girl after the Jazz game

After the Jazz game the other night everyone was herding out of the ESA trying to get across the street to wherever they were parked.  It was dark, cold and there were a MILLION people leaving the building at the same time.  We were standing in a HUGE crowd waiting for the the crosswalk to flash that it was safe to go when all of a sudden people just started stampeeding right through the center of the intersection.. It felt like it was like the end of the world and people were panicking trying to get away from creature that was chasing us or something.  Haha I'm just saying it felt like we were in a movie, it was that dramatic.

 Well all of a sudden I screamed "RUN!!" I thought Liz was behind me so I was like "LIZ, come on" as I continued to run across the street.  I reached over and grabbed " her" arm really tight without thinking and realized that it wasn't Liz I was latched on too.  I looked at the girl and said that ^.  But the embarrassing part was that I didn't just apologize and calmly say it..I screamed it in her face. Because I'm dramatic like that.  I turned around and realized Liz was further behind me almost peeing her pants because she was laughing so hard.  It was horrible. I'm sure I freaked that girl out.

"Did everyone eat their hot dog?!"

-Erin, Relief Society president while unknowingly doing a really gross hand gesture

I just love her.  And don't say "Omg, you just have a dirty mind." I'm not the only one who noticed it.  Hilarious.

"What do you want for dinner?" -Me to Kier who had been in a little car accident

"Ice chips and Loratabs?" -Kier

"I'm in." -me.

And this is why we are friends. 

hahahaha. jk.  But really. 

She settled for some Ibuprofen and Crowne burger.  It did the trick.

"Push your cuticles back with it." -Me to Cole handing him the cuticle pusher

"He doesn't have any!" -Kier

*Whisper* "I'm awesome." -Cole

If the cuticle thing is really what determines one's awesomeness--I'm screwed.  Good for you COLE.

"We'll be puppy parents!"

-Nieko

So it's not official or anything but there is a good chance that we will be fostering a baby puppy until someone agrees to adopt.  It's kind of a big deal for me to agree but I told Nieko that it's only because it's temporary and because "he had me at euthanize." I don't want any puppy to DIE.  that's just sad.  Of course Nieko knew the words he needed to say and the pictures he needed to send me to get me to agree.  (That boy) haha It's all good.  We'll see if it for sure happens, how it goes, and then we will go from there.  PUPPIES!! haha. 

Curse and Confession.

I sometimes cry in the shower.

Anyone who knows me understands that the dumbest things make me cry.  This one time someone told me about a relationship gone sour and I was heartbroken about it for almost a week.  The problem? I didn't even know the people.  Sadly, this has been known to happen more than a few times.  

I've decided that I've been cursed with a few things in my life which usually end in tears or just a lot of over thinking...

The first curse being my annoying expectation of greatness.  When I get to know someone, I know what they are capable and I expect greatness out of them (of course while still knowing that we all have flaws). Simple as that.  This also means that I tend to set even more outrageous standards for myself and end up disappointed a lot more than I'd like.  (I just want to note that I just deleted a good chunk of what I had written on this draft a couple of days ago.  Good thing I jot things down in the heat of the moment and sometimes just push save instead of publish. embarrassinggggg).  

I'm not going to confess anything specific because I realized that while I would like this to just be my personal journal, there a few people who actually read this crap.  So, no confessions other than to let you know that I'm not perfect. duh. I'm far from it actually. I do set high expectations and right now I'm just really working on conjuring up that motivation I know I have within me somewhere to make things a little bit better than they are now. But it's hard and I get discouraged just like every one else. I make mistakes, I let things go too far and I sometimes do things without thinking about the consequences    *Cue sad music on my iphone and tears in the shower* 
(it's funny that you think I'm exaggerating right now.)

We get that way sometimes don't we?  We get lazy, things get bad, we kick, scream (cry in the shower), we feel sorry for ourselves and we just want to know WHY things get so hard.  Why are we so weak? Why do we even have the desire to be good? Wouldn't it just be easier if we could give into temptations and just do whatever we wanted and be lazy for the rest of our lives and never progress or get better, be better, or do better?

preach.

I totally believe that it's OK to think like that sometimes but I really don't like to give myself too much time to feel sorry for myself...that comes with the before mentioned "curse" ^^. I don't like feeling weak. Although, I know I'm weak and to my dismay pathetic at times, I believe that feeling sorry for yourself for too long is stupid.  If you're spending too much time feeling sorry for yourself, then that means you aren't working towards turning things around.  With that being said, the shower is my time.  I ugly cry in there almost monthly.

I don't tell you that to make you feel bad for me or to think that I'm a crazy person.  I just totally need that time, and I'm OK with that. 

Some people run it off, some people scream into the pillow for a minute, and I ...cry in the shower. And guess what? I always end up feeling better.  I get it out, and immediately start making plans for what I'm going to do that day/week/month to do a little bit better.  

So maybe you don't cry in the shower or cry at all...but I highly recommend finding a place or something you can do to give yourself a little reality check from time to time when things get hard or when you are weak. Let yourself be pathetic for a second but be sure you make plans to change it and move on. Whatever it is, make it your time and make it something that makes you feel better.

I'd ask you to join me so you can see what I'm talking about, but the shower invite would be like, super awkward.  It's personal time.  Give yourself that 10 minutes. Run it out, scream it out, cry it out.. do what you got to do and then--keep the faith :)

Today is a good day.

I know I'm not the only one who has a social media routine.  Before bed, as well as right in the morning, I go through IFT (Instagram, Facebook, Twitter) in that exact order to see what I missed while I was sleeping.  It's sounds pathetic when I write it down like that but I know that pretty much everyone else does this too.   If you don't then good for you!

This morning as I was going through IFT trying to open up my eyes and start my day I noticed that today is Caitlin's birthday.  Now, I will look back on this blog years down the road and remember that Caitlin really wasn't my friend.  In fact, if I didn't have this one thing to tie to her name, or wasn't "friends" with her on facebook I wouldn't even remember her or that her birthday is on Feb 21st to be honest.  Caitlin was the first person who befriended me in the South Weber ward when I moved to Utah.  She was nice, ridiculously skinny, dated a lot and wore sweater dresses.  I knew that she probably wasn't a person I would be BFF with but I loved her for making me feel welcome in a ward filled with strangers.  She gave me a voice in that ward and most importantly she gave me the opportunity to throw my first Utah birthday party.  I know I've talked about this event before but this was just a significant night in my new life.  I didn't really know anyone, my brother had just moved in with me, and I was eager to make an effort to make friends.

That night changed everything.

I never really hung out with Caitlin again outside of church events (despite her efforts to try to get me to go country dancing) and she totally never gave back my cake pan, but I won't forget her.  

I guess sometimes we don't really stop to think how good we have things when we are just going through the motions of life.  Two years have pretty much past since I started to meet people and make Utah my home.  I remember what it was like before then, I remember the time in between and all the fun I've had here and I remember how rocky things have gotten at some points.  All in all, even when things have been a little difficult lately, I am so grateful for how good I have it.  I'm grateful for the lessons I've learned and am still learning and I'm grateful for the people who have given me second chances and stuck with me..especially those, who two years ago, never thought we would ever hang out again :) I'm glad we were all wrong.

Today is a good day.

Update and a short Wednesday Post

I know it's Wednesday and I'm simply supposed to write down some of the memorable crap people said to/around me this week but I need to write a little update about this weekend.  So, work has been crazy busy so my lunch time consists of me scarfing down some food and quickly getting updated on what is going on in the world instead of updating this old thing.  Anyways, I tweeted Monday about how I went home to Idaho this weekend and while it was kind of stressful and I wanted to cry a couple of times, it was just good to be away from my Utah life for a bit. So here's a quick recap and then I will get into the few things I jotted town for today's Wednesday post. Deal?

1.) Mason was sick.  Do you think I tried to not let him give me kisses? No.  I made him give his auntie kisses and I carried him around anywhere he would let me.  I shared drinks with him and I let him feed me snacks.  It only makes sense that I got sick; I asked for it.   But like my mom said, "It's worth it." She's totally right.  That boy is seriously my favorite. I could go on about that (you know this). But just some highlights... This boy is getting so big.  Right now he loves motorcycles and 4-wheelers and says the words so funny.  Anything that sounds like a motorcycle he will point it out and make this face like "huh? motorcycle?" Basically a plea to get you to take him outside.  He also associates "Cow" with "Papa" aka-Grandpa.  I love that.  Even though the kid was sick all weekend he was still a pretty happy boy.  Just don't tell him you are getting ready to go "Bubye" until you are absolutely ready to go because he will cry.  He loves to be on the go.  He also loves anything with buttons (the microwave) and Macaroni and cheese.  I could go on.  But I think my FAVORITE moment of the whole weekend was when I asked him to fold his arms like a good boy and Auntie would give him a piece of candy.  You guys, it was the most precious thing ever.  He folded his arms like a reverent little boy, but looked up with this smirk (because he knows he's cute) and his face screamed "Ok, give me candy now." haha.  So he folds his arms now.  It's the best.

2.) We brought Kiersten home with us.  I tried to set her up for what she was getting herself into, and I don't think I could have prepared her quite enough.  I told her that people just live simpler lives in Parma... I never realized this as much as I did this weekend helping Cole show her around town.  We really do live simpler lives.  Sure, it's still stressful but it's a different kind of stress.  Anyways, I love that town and the people in it.  I feel bad because it was quite possibly the worst weekend for her to come home because everyone was so stressed with James leaving for DC.  But in a way I guess it was kind of good.  Like, "Ok, if you want to date Cole, here's what he comes from!" haha. But she was so good about it and seemed to fit right in.  Everyone loves her, of course :)  

3.)  Families are funny.  With my family, we all love each other but that doesn't mean that we all "get" each other all the time or that we all get along all the time.  We think that some of the choices that are made are stupid, we don't communicate the best all the time, we want to slap each other occasionally and we bite out tongues a lot.  But at the end of the day, we love each other and we always will.  Our family might not have been at the strongest point this weekend.. there was a lot of miscommunication, grumpy attitudes and misunderstandings but we always end up coming together and making things work.  That is what I love the most about my family.  We try harder to make sense of things and we try our hardest to support each other.  It might be hard sometimes but we just do it.

4.) I've always known that I am the "middle" man in our family.  I guess it's fitting since I'm the dreaded middle child; everyone goes to you and they expect you to fix things.  I get it, and I'm glad that people love me enough and trust me enough to do that..Because if that, I have a special bond with each of my siblings and my parents that I don't think they have with anyone else in the family.  So I love that,  but it does get stressful at times.  And this weekend was one of those times.  It doesn't help that I'm a people-pleaser when it comes to people I love.  (Dang it!)  But I realized this weekend as I was driving back and forth, on the verge of tears, trying to make sure everyone was happy and no one felt neglected that there are sometimes where you just have to let people work out their issues on their own.  I'm going to work harder at that this year.  I can't fix everyone. ( I know anyone reading this is probably like "OBVI" but I'm really going to try to put more responsibility on others to fix their own problems and to try to not feel bad about not helping as much.  It's not going to be easy.. but I'm trying.)  So if you are in that same spot with anyone that you love right now.. talk to them about it.  Let them know that it's not fair to put all their crap on you.  But do it in love.  And if you're the person who doesn't have your crap pulled together, well, you know how I feel about that.   We all have out problems and it's not fair to expect other people to fight your battles.  They might do it because they love you but if you have something to say/do, say it or do it yourself.  It will seriously make your life less stressful and will make the people around you understand you better.  Don't hold in what you are feeling and only share with one person.  Tell the person you have a problem with ... guaranteed the other person knows there is a problem.  Just make things easier for yourself and get it out.  OK? done. moving on.

Happy note.  I totally got pulled over on the way home and I totally didn't even cry because I knew that there was no way that hot cop man wasn't going to give me a ticket. He came back to the car with only a written warning.  I was like WHAT?! seriously, things might be looking up for me this year after all :) 

OK.  I'll Stop---Here's Wednesday's post:

"Right now I feel as happy as Christmas."

-Kier after opening Valentines gift.

They celebrated Valentine's Day a day early this year because she had to work, but she really was that excited about opening gifts and sitting around listening to the record player she got Cole.  #presh

"I guess I could jackass a fart."

"I'm not kidding he even blow darted a fart."

-Mom talking about a jackass clip she saw.

She'll kill me for writing this but I just wanted you to know how funny/cool my mom is.  I'm not sure why she was talking about farting or jackass but she must have just wanted us to know how bizarre she thought it was..  I'm actually not 100% sure but 'blow darted a fart means.'  I don't want to know.  ew gross.  I won't even tell you what she accidentally called the movie title instead of it's already inappropriate title.  smh.  My mother.

"Boobie."

-Mason trying to say 'movie'

Jamie claims that I just have a sick mind but he legit says that when he's saying movie.  I just know it.  Of course he has no clue what he's saying and he doesn't know any better but I get a kick out of it.  Kids are so funny.

"Reeeeeeeaaaaal flat here."

-Kier about Idaho

This was the first thing she said about where we live.  It's totally a big difference coming from Utah where you are surrounded by mountains.. She was totally impressed by all the fields.  haha like, we took her to eat in one of Parma's food places "Boys Better Burgers" (we call it "Boys" for short) anyways, there was an Arial picture of Parma from a while ago and it's all open land surrounding out small town with tons of open fields of all different shapes, sizes and colors.  She saw it and said that she wants to make a quilt like that when she learns how to quilt. bahhaha. smh. 

"Jenn, that is disgusting."

-Jamie talking about Big Ang

She really was totally grossed out by her when I made them watch Mob Wives with me.  But I totally thought he was gross when I was first introduced to her too, until I realized how funny she is (and that she's for sure a women) Now I love her!

"I didn't know he knew how to say sorry."-me to Jaym about Mason

"Yeah, because he hits people." -Jamie

hahaha. Of course it's not funny that Mason hits people and I don't think he does it that much, but it's just funny for me to see him growing up and actually getting in trouble and having to apologize for things.  HA.  Hopefully he doesn't hit people in Nursery.  LOL. omg.

"Well, I love it."

-Kier about parma/our little farm

Of course she wasn't going to tell us that she hated it but I think she really did like it.  She even told my dad that she loved his farm.  Probably because she found eggs and she "felt like it was Easter but more real."  hahaha.  She's funny.

Valentines Day!

I walked into work this morning and saw that one of my coworkers had decorated another coworker's cube in red paper hearts and signs that read, "Happy Single Awareness Day."  At first glance I thought, "oh how nice" but then quickly remembered how I loathe people changing 'Valentine's Day' to 'Single Awareness Day' (also known as "S.A.D" by the depressed and lonely singles of this world and those few who are dating or married who like to rub it in single people's faces.  For the latter, I'm pretty sure that is grounds for going straight to H-E-double hockey sticks. Just sayin.  OK, maybe that was taking it too far but if you are one of those people then you are rude).

Whatever happened to those days where not having a boyfriend or girlfriend was totally acceptable and you made Valentine's Day cards for everyone in your life (class)?  The fact that those be-proud-of-who-you-are days are long gone for most of us is what makes me SAD.  If you're the type that is always in a relationship, great.  I love it.  If you are single and just just doing your thing, awesome.  Whatever your "status" is..embrace it.  Don't feel bad for yourself and please don't make anyone else feel bad for you. That's the worst. Just be who you are and love it.  As Mary Catherine Gallagher said in Superstar--
You are your own Rainbow.  

Think about that one for a second.  It's for real. Deep, Mary.  Deep. 

Confession time.

Two days ago my hair lady asked me if my dating life had changed in the last 4 months (don't judge.  I let my roots get WAY too out of control this time). Yesterday someone asked me if I was married.  My answer for the last 6 years or so to questions like these has always been, "Nooo, I don't date. I'm just having fun!...Hopefully someday I will care." Totally a cop out answer so I don't have to keep talking about things that most people won't even begin to understand but it's also not a lie either.  The truth is I don't date, I am having fun and while I only care a little right now, I really do know that someday I will care more about the whole dating/marriage thing.  I totally want to meet someone special someday, I fall in love, and have a kid or two but I have been fortunately blessed for all of my life to not give a crap.  Mostly. It's been nice really.  It's only when people point out that I'm single that I want to barf.  Not because of my relationship status on Facebook or because I'm sad but because I literally want to blow chunks simply to make people who ask me those questions get out of my face. Make sense?

So I'm not SAD that I'm single.  In fact, I'm having a great Valentine's Day and I'm pretty happy. 

Yesterday, Cole and Kier celebrated Valentine/s Day early because she has to work late tonight.  They came home after and each gave me a little gift.  I sincerely know that coming from them it wasn't out of pity (like last Valentine's Day..omg. let's not get started) but just simply because they love me.  And I really appreciated that.  Then of course the parentals sent a few gift cards because they are the best.  I know it's not about the gifts and you really don't have to buy me things to show me that you love me, but it is nice to know that people care.

So Valentines Day is totally what you make it just like every other day is totally what you make it.  It's not about being single or having that "special someone." (although I'm sure that's nice) but it's about love and relationships in general...being loved and loving people.  It's about having a special day to show people that you care about them and appreciate them.  Like I said, you don't have to buy anything if you don't want to.  Just be kinder to each other today.  Help each other out.  Have fun together.  Celebrate that you are in each others lives.  Parents, siblings, friends, lovers.. whatever the case, 
Just love.
Oh and totally cheat and eat some chocolate. 

Oh ...and save the flowers!! 
jk. I won't get into all the flowers that are murdered on this day.
ok. I love flowers just as much as anyone else but I can never understand why they are so expensive and I just feel bad for them when they die and you have no control over it.  For me? Spring for a plant that I can water and keep alive.

I'm weird. Amen.

Happy Valentines Day everyone!! 
Creepy virtual hugs all around :)

Wednesday, duh.

"Are you a professional duct-taper now?
-Nieko
Here's the thing though, I really am.  If you had a close look at my animal print, duct tape chairs I have in my kitchen, you would probably be so impressed with me that you would have no other choice but to give me a high five on the spot. I'm that good.

"Have fun. Drive Safe. No Hookers."
-Savanna
Dang it.  No hookers? What kind of a trip is that?! jk.  She's funny.

"I'm turning 21. Can you believe it."- Girl at Liz's Slumber Party
"Um.I'm already 22."- Amanda
"Ew. That's gross." -Same Girl
This was one of those moments where you're like... "really?!" and then you want to punch the girl in the face even though you know she's semi-kidding.  I'm sure she's real nice but after that I was like? "I'm 25.  Why am I even here? You're immature annnnnd a little annoying."  And then I remembered that I was there for Liz and I was over it.  Luckily I bit my tounge. It's one thing to speak up when it's your friends because then you can all just laugh about how old I am in comparison to all the other fetuses surrounding me.. but when you don't know the people it's just embarrassing.

"Yoga Pants.  It's like wearing no pants, only more socially acceptable."
-Same girl as the last comment.
After she said this comment and I got a total kick out of it, she got less annoying.  So that's good.  But really wearing yoga pants is basically like being naked.  And for it to totally be acceptable?  ...God bless America.

"I should be cleaning a place like this, not sleeping in it."
-Kier about our Suite at the Cosmopolitan in Vegas
I'm sure you saw the picture but the hotel is super fancy!  So it was fun taking Kier there...especially since she'd 1-Never been to Vegas before, 2-Layton to Las Vegas was her longest car ride/trip ever and 3-She told me that she's mostly stayed at places like Best Westerns and other places equally...awesome.  haha. Anyway, she was so much fun taking there.  I just love that she said this.  I pictured her being a little foreigner cleaning all the rooms, knocking on doors saying, "house keeping?" 

(*not that ALL housekeepers in the hotel world are foreigner but you know what I'm saying)

"I want to get punched by Mike Tyson!"
-Cole
You guys--There was a line to meet Mike Tyson outside of a store at the Planet Hollywood mall area.  Did we want to wait in the long line? No.  But Cole really did want to get punched by Mike Tyson.  Can you imagine though?! Being able to say that you've been punched by him?  The guy is crazy. And I'm pretty sure he's not all there? Did I make it up? I can't remember.  He just has that look. Oh, and that whole ear thing...Anyways.

"Oh LOOK! She got a Dooney !"-Me
"What's that?" -Kier
Bless her.

"Wow that skittle must have been in there a long time, it doesn't have any flavor."
-Sam about a skittle he found under the couch cushion.
I just want to know who, other than a 3 year old, eats something they found in a couch?  hahaha. Seriously. 


"Hiya Moms.  You look like more of the mom type."
-Dwayne the homeless guy at the Gas station after the concert 
I have had conversations and made friends with the weirdest of people in my days but there are a few people I just don't feel comfortable around.  (Most) homeless people being the only category I will mention right now so you don't think a big old racist, which, I am not.  Anyways, after the concert I pretty much felt like I was going to die.  Like, "Am I a 90 year old diabetic? Because I am that sore and THAT thirsty." It was bad. (don't get me wrong, the concert was AMAZING!)  So after we ran across the street to this ghetto Market attached to a subway across from the Hard Rock to get water.  We sat down and started guzzling our Liters of h20, minding our own business, when this homeless black guy (with surprisingly the nicest teeth) come up to us with the opening line of "Smells like weed in here." which it did not.  Then he sat down next to sam.  I instantly started to think of ways that I could get out of the conversation that was about to happen because I knew it would lead to asking fore money.  I know it's rude.  He told us about how the cops kicked him out of the Subway just brushing his teeth.  Then he asked us for our names and put out his hands to shake them.  First he told cole he looked like Super man.  I'm guessing just because he's big? I don't know.  Then he reached out his hand and said "hiya moms." omg. Not only did I not really want to shake his hand (rude I know, but I just figured a friendly smile would suffice instead of participating in a germ exchange) but then he called me "MOMs?" oh HEELLLLLLL nah. 

 Whatevs.  Sounds about right.

Long story short.  Cole gave him 4 bucks for bus fare and he suckered sam out of $15 worth of food.  I kid you not.  He was one of those who knew he had Sam hook-line-and-Sinker and he took advantage of it. "Oh I need some chips." "oh a Sandwich." And just kept going.  Don't worry.  Sam won exactly $15 bucks back gambling.  #blessings.

omg. I'm going to go work on doing some non-momish things.  gah #FML.

ANNOYING.

Have you ever had one of those days where something frustrating happens and then EVERYTHING from that point on just bugs the crap right out of you?! yeah me too.  Yesterday was just one of those days.  Not only was yesterday already cursed because it was a Monday but my day didn't stand a chance with all of the dumb people I was surrounded with.  Work, home, all of it.  pure crap.

I realized that I'm the worst pet peeves.  Now, when I say the worst, I mean that if something bugs me, I will literally feel like I'm going to explode until the annoying thing stops.  Sometimes it's stuff that people can't help, but that doesn't matter in the moment.  Like when someone sneezes a billion times and it sounds like they aren't covering their mouth.  [Nope. I can not. ]  Or when people just don't do the things they are supposed too and they expect other people to just do it for them or to know what they are talking about. grrr.

Yesterday was just one of those days.

I've realized that there are a few ways to be on my good side during one of those days.  1--don't be annoying. 2-clean up after yourself so I don't have to do it and 3- give me some space for a minute. And if that doesn't work *bonus- get me a gift or do something nice for me.  That totally helps change my negative attitude into a positive one.

I guess when you're just around people all the time, things will just start to bug you.  You can't get away from it sometimes. It could be at work, home, or even just a group of friends.  When people do things that we find annoying, it's usually because they aren't doing it the way that we do it.  Reality check, of course they don't.  We were all brought up differently and we're just all different in general.  Like, I cover my mouth when I sneeze (either with a tissue, elbow, hand if I have too) and some people do it in their shirt, or don't cover at all...so I choose to not smack my cereal when I eat or I choose to have the house cleaned or to be organized at work..that doesn't mean that everyone is that way or that I'm right (although, let's get real, I still feel pretty right about all of those things I just complained about). Having had almost 30 roommates not counting family in my lifetime, I've realized that you have to have patience. It really doesn't always get easier.  People will annoy you no matter where you go or what you do.

The key is to just not let it get to you so bad in the moment.  Put yourself in their shoes for a minute.  They probably don't see anything wrong with whatever they are doing or however they are living or else they probably wouldn't be doing it.  It might be awkward, but if you don't say anything then compromises can't be made and understanding goes right out the window.

ugh. but it's just so hard when you don't want to sound like the WITCH who is like "umm. I guess that's OK.  gonna have to be."

Stepping back and taking a deep breath totally helps me stay sane. It might take me a whole day to get to that point but trust me.  Just breathe.  And ...if you have too...lock yourself in your room or the bathroom for a minute.  If you're anything like me, you will feel better and you'll get some great cleaning in! ;)

Everyone tells me that I'm just prepping myself for marriage living with boys.  But I think I'm doing them more of a favor. haha.  Their future wives will thank me down the road, I'm sure of it.

Like I had to tell my mom this morning -- "Just breathe.  bite your tongue if it's not going to make things better."  Boy does it make me feel good that my mother (who turned 53 yesterday) has annoyances and drama just like I do sometimes.  Makes me feel better about myself.  And more normal...  :)

Don't think, just type. Actually, what am I saying? These are my thoughts. 15 minutes in my head. Annnnd go.

I freak out about the dumbest things.  Yesterday, I couldn't stand that my nails weren't painted for one day.  It was a big deal.  I hated that it was a big deal, but it was. This last week/month I've been freaking out about what to do when my apartment contract is up at the end of April because of roommate situations, people being in different stages of life, and me just being like, "Merp."  Isn't it funny that my pathetic "Mid-single" aged life is determined on an apartment contract and what other people around me are doing with their lives?  It's like, "...so, the contract's almost up.  Now what? Where will I be in 6, or 12 months or where will Cole be.. because that's what I have to sign up for.  The next 6 or 12 months of my life." I hate it.  Almost as much as I hate that now that I'm 25 I'm considered a "Mid-Single Adult."  Did you know they have firesides just for us?  I heard two of my older mid-single adult friends in the ward say that they only went to one of those firesides but stopped because they basically were told they were a failure for not being married.  But really, what's new?  We DO live in Utah.  I've been told that for years already so it's not a secret that that is what people think about you.  Get over it.  You're just a mid-single LOSER.  haha jk. I'll be the first to tell you that if you're like me, you aren'ta  loser.  I'm not a loser and that's not a secret. You know what is a secret though?  HA. Good try.  I can't tell you because they are secret.  A couple of them, in fact. [I'll blog about that later on.]  But I will just tell you that feel like 2013 is going to be a big year for a lot of people.  When I say big year, I mean that I hope it's a GOOD, big year.  We're due for it since 2012 was just kind of crappy for a lot of people I love.

*hmmm. * Sigh* yawn*

How is time going by so fast but winter seems to be lasting so long?  I need some freaking sun around here.  Not just because I'm freakishly white under all these layers of clothes but because the sun, green grass, and being  outside just makes me happy.  Not saying that I do a lot of outside activities, but you get my point.  I'm sick of the cold.  I'm sick of the snow.  

OK..Now I sound negative even though I know most of you hate this point of the winter too.  Something Positive.. um.. This weekend I'm going to Vegas for a quick one night stay in Vegas! Kier has never been before so her, Sam, Cole and I got tickets to see Imagine Dragons at the Hard Rock on Saturday night. So we're going for a quick trip.  I really don't LOVE car rides over 3 hours but I don't have to drive, so I'm happy about that. I also scored us a night at the Cosmopolitan so that should be fun. It really will just be kind of nice to get away for a minute. oh, look at me.. being positive!

Well, 15 minutes are up. 
Here's to a Fantastic day and trying to not freak out about anything for remainder of it.  I mean it.  No freak outs.  

Positive thoughts------> Positive Energy:) 

Wednesday

"Kiersten, put your hands up."
-Nieko to Kier who had her hands between her legs by her crotch
"Where else am I supposed to put them?!" -Kier
This is a typical thing that would happen in my apartment.  Everyone has a semi-dirty mind (mine being the LEAST dirty because I won the last round of Dirty Minds..anyways) so we just assume that people are being purvey or weird.  She was just trying to keep her hands warm.. I think?  haha but really that's not the only place to put your hands.  You can put them in your pocket, fold them or even just place them on your lap :) try it. 

"Were you guys talking about me?"
-Sam to this cute food worker at the mall
There are just some people who can start talking to someone and in a matter of a couple of minutes, ask for their number and it's like no big deal.  Sam is one of those people.  I'm not saying it's a bad thing, you just don't see it happen like that very often.  Confidence, you know? But then to go back and ask for BBQ sauce, and ask if they are talking about you? omg. ...yeah. I'm done.  I can not...

boys.

"OK, so what do you want to do for your last official night hanging out?" -Me 
"Cuddle." -Soon to be missionary
"*haha* Ok. But really?" -me
"I was serious." -dude
Sure, I went along with it for a minute but then it was like um.. "Who wants to play Apples to Apples!?" I'm not kidding.  And I hate that game. It doesn't make any sense, the rules are stupid and it's not fun. Like, at all.  But we played and I sucked.  Actually, I did end up winning two cards at the very end.  You know how they are supposed to explain you or whatever.. my cards were "Juicy and Pure."  Let's not even get started on the other words on the card that described Juicy.  Meh.  That's me--Juicy/Pure Jenn.  Ew. Actually, I take that back. Say the word Juicy when it comes to a person or..anything actually. Did you do it? 
  
Gross. 

"You're Screamin'!"
-Kid to me at FHE
At first I didn't know what he meant.  Like are you trying to give me a compliment or bash on me? I wasn't even saying anything. That's when I realized I was wearing my BRIGHTEST pink/orange hoodie and I guess it's just a little shocking for people.  It's bright, I get it.  That was followed by everyone commenting on the sweater for the rest of the night.  Mostly dudes.  I don't get it.  Maybe I need to wear it more often to get their attention. #jk #mostlyweirdos #blesstheirsouls #sorrynotsorry

"She's just singing a beautiful tune."
-Kier to Liz who couldn't understand what I was quietly saying/singing
I guess Liz thought I was talking to her but I was just singing "Bandz A Make Her Dance."  I guess it could be considered a beautiful tune, Kiersten Cullen.  Way to see the best in all things.

...Drank.

"You look tan today."
-Coworker, Wendy
Seriously, this happens every time I don't wash my hair and just stick it in a messy bun on the top of my head. I think I've figured out that it's because when I don't wash my hair, I have to pull it all back in a pony and well, my roots are SUPER grown out so my hair around my face looks darker which makes me wonder, does my blonde wash my face out? omg. I need to get into GrassRoots next week.  Like ASAP.  And I need to convince myself that either it's OK to be white or it's OK to age myself in a tanning bed because since it's been winter I've worn tights or jeans everywhere and my legs are white as a ghost.  I'm not joking.  Or laughing. CURSE YOU TANNING MOM. *shakes fist*

"My New York accent comes out when I'm emotional or "PISSED OFF."
-Girl during her testimony over the pulpit at church.
Now, if you aren't like me and haven't watched 8 hundred different East Coast Reality shows..then maybe you can't picture the way she said "pissed off" in her accent. It's funny because saying you are "pissed" is one of those words where pretty much all LDS people either say it or they treat it like it's not a swear.  Which, in my opinion, it's not a swear but my mom likes to tell us not to say it if we do.  ANYWAYS, it's just one of those words that we hear all the time and it's like "whatever." But to hear someone shout it in a Brooklyn/NY accent over the pulpit at church during a testimony..TOTAL shock factor.  Even I had to look down because I was so shocked and kind of embarrassed for her.  People quickly got over it and we all got a good laugh at it.  Not sure what the bishopric thought.  I couldn't even look at them.
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Random but did you catch the last two episodes of New Girl?! omg. I tweeted about the Nick and Jess kiss last week. It was fantastic.  Kier and I creepily had to rewind it because we couldn't believe how magical it was.  It was just one of those moments where two people who were never in love or at least never admitted to themselves or anyone else that they had feelings for their good friend has this moment where something just clicks between them one day and the dude grabs the girl and just kisses her because he can.  Seriously.  It was great. 

haha. Well, this is how Jess described it in last night's episode in her dry personality sort of way (if you know what I'm talking about).  

"It was firm but tender.  I saw through space and time for a moment, but that's not the point."
Seriously though, we felt it Zooey D.  that was a good kiss.

annd.... done with the cheese-ball, moment.

HAPPY WEDNESDAY :)